Jake’s pov
The missing feeling when I left Zoey to the door was evitable, but seeing her stand there with that scared expression, I wanted to jump out the window. Her cheeks so red, her lips puffy? and? Jake shut up!
Everything happened in a blur soon after that? just when I let my hands fall down at my side; I felt Zo?s tiny body crashing onto mine. Her arms around my neck? Okay wasn?t expecting that.
What is she doing?
I couldn?t react in any way; my body had warmed up in almost an altering second. I looked down at her face, her eyes had been forced shut and she was biting her lips too hard? I thought she would cut herself any moment now. She nonetheless looked different? I know she?s pretty but today she looked? looked? beautiful. That was surely an understatement? but no time to search the vocabulary book.
I was enjoying the moment? busy staring at this beautiful girl in my arms, until she started loosing her hold on me and acquiring lower and lower each second. My shorty can?t reach my height? I almost smiled when I noticed her standing on her toes just to reach my shoulder. Well she?s slipping away? I couldn?t have that?
Why would she hug me after which let go?
I raised my hands so fast and grabbed her tiny arms and stopped it right exactly where it was. It felt like her arms belonged there, completing me in some way? I liked the feeling and dude? didn?t want to let her go, she was my missing puzzle piece, she belonged there! She can’t let go so damn easily!
But her face wasn?t as close; she was leaning away from me facing the ground. I was curious as to what she would look like? I don?t know? I wasn?t expecting somebody else?s face there but I just wanted to see her look at me.
I imagined what she would appear like when she?d move her head up. I waited? she stayed there nonetheless. I leaned closer as my curiosity took the best of me, linked my forehead to hers, nudging it so that she?d look at me. I wanted her to appear at me? and I wanted to see her look at me but she didn’t.
When I nudged her head, her long blonde hair, still somewhat wet, fell to her face. She pulled it back, I, nonetheless waiting for her to look at me, placed a hand to her head. That?s when she looked up at me.
She looked so fragile and so beautiful, so really beautiful. The little light of the room, produced her pale skin appear like they were glowing, but I wouldn?t give the lighting’s the credit for way she looked. Her eyes were glassy? Like an unconscious tear was about to fall? and her lips trembling a bit? I was amazed just how considerably I noticed her features in that 1 glance.
I noticed the silent tears in her eyes, her swollen lips with her teeth?s mark etched on it, her neck moving as she took an uneven breath in, her feet twitching as I leaned down, her trembling arms threatening to lower once once again. I moved her arms back around my neck making certain she wouldn?t bring it down again.
Looking at this girl in front of me, she looked so fragile but still so right there. I felt like she?d fall into pieces if I let her go? and only I know how considerably I wanted to keep her? never let her go. It felt so right Zo getting in my arms that the entire freaking world didn?t matter. Who cares? If you think this is a freak-show then I don?t want decency… I want a bloody damn freak-show for my whole life… cheesy considerably Jake?
I leaned gently to touch her lips, as soon as I touched her warm lips with my not-so-warm lips. I felt myself twitching in anticipation and nervousness. I waited for Zo to pull back, yell at me and throw a lamp at me or one thing. But nothing happened? she shivered inside the contact never leaving her hands around my neck or moving her lips from mine.
Look? I?m a great kisser? an incredible one? what can I say I am what I am. But with Zo everything went outta window. I forgot each and every ?move?, each and every ?experience? I had prior to this. It was like my first kiss ever despite the fact that it wasn?t.
I couldn?t make myself aggressive, it was crazy the way I felt. All my desires had been mixed up? I wanted to kiss her and never let her go, but I wasn?t certain if I should be aggressive with her, I wanted to push her to the door but I wanted to be gentle with her. My mind was in a verge of exploding? I am thinking of making out with my freaking best friend. This is crazy! But was it? It felt soooo damn right. Shouldn?t it really feel wrong?
Who the fucking hell cares?
I started moving my lips to hers, still debating with aggression or gentleness. But when she moved her lips with mine, my noisy head went into a complete mute mode. All I heard was Zo breathing within the gaps, she taking in an uneven breath; it was this wonderful sound that produced my hands twitch to do something more, to grab her hair or some thing like that.
But then I felt her lips leave whilst we were kissing. Whoa? does she hate me now? Fuck? this is gonna be bad? damn bad. I hesitantly parted my lips from hers.
Her face was so cute? she was closing her eyes not forced anymore, like she?d been kissing and actually enjoying it ?her lips nonetheless was formed in a pout, almost smiling. That sight was so? so? attracting? so magnetic. I was pulled to her lips lightly like I had no control of my own.
I would?ve deepened the kiss this time, but then I heard footsteps.
“Jake? are you there? Jake?” I heard a voice.
Fuck! Annie! Shit! She?s? my girlfriend and she?s here? Fuck it!
I didn?t want to budge from the place I was in with Zo?s arms wrapped around me, even if my girlfriend was about to barge in. Seriously? I really don?t care.
But then Zo dropped her arms around me and pushed me out the door with out a fucking word. What the hell! I was about to go back but…
“Jake? what are you doing here? Are you okay? You look flushed baby.” Annie said clearly worried about me.
I couldn?t answer, I was burning with rage. Why did Zo just push me out the door? What the fuck is she thinking?
“Babe? you okay? What were you doing here? I thought you left me alone there?”
“Umm… No? umm Zo and I?”I didn’t know what to say.
But I didn?t want to maintain any secrets or anything. Only 1 thing was clear in my head, I wanted to be back there with Zoey.
“Hey? Annie? umm Jake was just helping me? I just puked”
I snapped my head around to face Zo. Did she just say that? I just puked?
“Oh my god? what happened you okay, Zo?”
Annie and Zo probably talked about something? I couldn?t care less? I just stared at Zo?s face. I didn?t know what to think? did she hate kissing me that bad? i looked at Zo for another second. but she didn’t even appear at me. damn it!
I just left the house without a fucking care within the world, missing my missing puzzle piece that was so close in my arms a second ago.
The perfect night ruined? fucking great job Zo!
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Okay I just realized thing! The chapter 17 is titled as chapter 15.. my fault! sorry Lucy!! =)
anws I really can handle criticism… I just want to make my writing better and believe it or not your comments really do support!
So I know this chapter ended in a bad mode, but I promise I won’t leave you jake&zoey-less!! you know what to do! <3