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Chapter 2
Paige?s P.O.V
I spent most of the night crying. When Alex went to leave, I gave him the biggest hug of my life and thanked him so considerably. He told me it was all fine, and he also stated he?d come more than the next day to see how I was doing.
He was way too lovely.
I couldn?t sleep that night. I spent most of it lying awake in my bed, crying silently and hurting a good deal. At about 3am, I couldn?t take anymore and crept into Matt?s room, and climbed into bed with him. He comforted me when I told him I couldn?t sleep, and I thanked God that I had him as my huge brother.
I don?t even bear in mind falling to sleep. When I opened my eyes, I was nonetheless in Matt?s room. The sun seemed high inside the sky, and there had been no sings of Matt at all. The bedside clock told me it was 10am, and I wondered exactly where Matt was. He was virtually often in bed at this time.
Then I remembered it was the very first day of term. I was year 10 now. And I couldn?t spend it with Amber.
I trudged downstairs, wiping my tear stained face which now had new tears running down it. Mum was sat in the table inside the kitchen, drinking coffee and reading the morning paper.
?Honey! Paige, how are you currently feeling?? She asked me, standing up and coming to give me a hug. I hugged her back and let several a lot more tears roll down my cheeks.
?Like crap.? I told her, my voice cracking.
?Oh, sweetie. You poor factor.?
?I miss her so considerably, mum. Already.? I told her, pulling away from her embrace. She led me to the kitchen table and sat down with me.
?I know you do. It?s awful.?
?It?s all my fault. I need to have stopped her. I shouldn?t have let her run across the road like that.? I told her, feeling sick.
?It was not your fault, Paige. I promise you, it wasn?t. You mustn?t blame yourself. It wasn?t you fault. Now, tell me what happened.?
I told everything. Every single little detail.
?Paige.? She whispered, pulling me into yet another hug. ?It?s so sad, I know. I will do almost everything I can to cheer you up.?
I spent most of the morning watching crappy day time TV, but I was unable to concentrate, with Amber constantly on my mind.
What were her foster parents going through? Amber?s parents died when she was really young, and she had lastly settled with foster parents who had been planning on adopting her. What had been they feeling? I couldn?t even bare the thought.
I went up to my room and logged onto my Spotify. Right after obtaining changed into my leggings plus a long top, I lounged around my room listening to sad songs, listening to the way the lyrics spoke my feelings and thoughts, and I went via pictures of Amber and me on Facebook, crying my eyes out. I missed her so much. It was all my fault. I wished she was nonetheless with me, and we could be laughing together inside the school halls at all of the year 7?s with massive schoolbags and best uniform. But no. She wasn?t here. And never would be ever once again.
I heard a light tap at my door, and when I looked up I saw Matt smiling at me sympathetically.
?Hey, Paige. How?re you feeling?? He asked softly, dropping his schoolbag at my doorway and walked more than to me, pulling me into his embrace. I smiled and hugged him.
?Not too excellent.? I admitted, sniffing.
?Awe, honey. Everything will get greater. I promise you. I know it?s so upsetting. And you?ll miss her. We all will.?
That set me off crying once again, and he held me for a while, just before pulling me into his bedroom. We sat down on his bed as he rocked me gently. I could not stop crying. It felt like the entire globe had been turned upside down, and almost everything had been shaken out of it. Nothing mattered anymore. I just wanted Amber back.
?You realize what? You need to have cheering up.? He stated when we?d finally pulled away from one another, even although his face was stained with tears itself. I smiled an extremely shaky smile.
?You know Alex? You remember him from yesterday right?? Matt stated, and I nodded.
?How could I not? He was so lovely.?
?Right.? Matt grinned. ?I saw him at school these days. He asked how you were doing. I told him about last night and-?
?WAIT. You told him about last night?? I asked, embarrassed.
?Yeah. It doesn?t matter, Paige. He?s worried about you. Like, actually worried. He stated he?ll come over this evening to see you. Would you like that??
I nodded, and tried another smile. ?Yeah. That could be lovely.?
?Great. He said he didn?t have to stay long, and that he?d just stay for a minute in case you wanted, or for a even though; however long you desire.?
?Okay. That?s fine. Awh, which is so good of him, bless him!? I smiled, wiping my eyes with my hand.
?Very good. He likes you, you realize.?
?And I like him too.? I replied, unsmiling. I did like him. But my heart wasn?t there, and I didn?t really feel I could smile.
?But in that way??
?Matt! My greatest friend has died and you can?t stop match-making for 5 minutes?!? I cried out, jumping up and wrenching out of his arms, sudden tears springing in my eyes.
?Hey!? He replied softly, pulling me gently back into his arms. ?It?s alright, I was only kidding. I didn?t mean it like that, I was just saying, Alex appears to like you far more than maybe he need to. But that?s not a bad factor. He?s lovely, Paige. He only wants you to be pleased.?
?Just imagine if Amber was here.? I whispered by way of unshed tears.
?Why??
?She?d be all more than him. In reality, they?d probably already have a date. She would absolutely enjoy him.?
?So, you admit he?s likable?? Matt stated having a grin, and I punched him, laughing.
?Perhaps. But my point is, I couldn?t do that.?
?Why? As hard as this really is, Amber isn?t here. And from where she is at this time, she could be so, so pleased to see you?d identified an individual.?
?I can?t, Matt.? She whispered, seeking into his eyes. ?It?s too soon.?
?That?s fine. I comprehend. But let him in, Paige. Don?t push him away. Whether he loves you as a friend, or much more, all he wants to see is your happiness. And he?s willing to be there for you. Don?t let that go, alright??
I nodded, and gave my big brother a huge hug. As if on cue, the door bell rang.
?Must be him.? Matt stated, and I stood up.
?Coming?? I asked when halfway out of the doorway.
?Na. I?ve got homework to do. I?ll wait here. Invite him up here.?
?Homework on the very first day?!? I called, generating my way to the stairs.
?That?s year eleven for ya!? He called back when I was nearly in the door, but even that didn?t make me smile. My heart just wasn?t in it.
As I passed the hallway mirror, I caught a glimpse of my reflection. Thick, straight and layered, un-brushed hair, smudged mascara and tired eyes. Lovely.
?Alex.? I smiled a trembling smile as I opened the door to him. He grinned and I invited him into the residence. He still looked amazing. Curly, thick, dark hair, and sparkling green eyes. His skin was clearer than the sky in summer, and his smile was flawless. All chiseled jaw and twinkling eyes, the boy in front of me was an absolute vision. A part of me observed this, but the other part, the majority, could not have cared less. He was just a boy. Amber was my greatest mate. She was the 1 that mattered. And she?d gone.
?Hey.? He smiled. ?How are you feeling today?? The earnest, caring expression shining in his eyes made my heart flip more than, and tears filled my eyes for the ump-teenth time that day.
?Not so excellent.? I whispered, and he hugged me rapidly, prior to I pulled away, taking his hand.
?Let?s go upstairs.? I told him, attempting a smile but failing miserably, after which pulled him up the staircase and towards my room.
?Yo, Alex!? Matt called from his desk when we walked past his room.
?Sup Matt!? He called back, but didn?t stop following me into my room. He walked in following me and looked about himself.
?Wow. I really like your room.? He smiled, staring around. I smiled a very small, barely noticeable smile.
?Thanks.? I had to admit, I loved my room too. It was red and white, using a massive window on 1 side, showing the sun as it sets in the evening. It wasn?t enormous, but was reasonably huge and spacious.
?So,? I heard Alex say, and I only just realized how close he was stood to me. ?How have you been today, sweetie??
For a second, I looked him correct within the eyes. After which I felt my facade of bravery wash away like a shore of shells, and I practically broke down in his arms, sobbing.
?Not so excellent.? I wept. He shushed me gently, holding me as I sobbed and pulling me more than to the bed, sitting me down, still in his arms.
?It?s alright.? He whispered, and I lay my head on his shoulder as his arms wound round my body, pulling me closer to his warmth. ?I know it?s horrible. I know.?
But how did he know?
?How do you realize?? I asked, speaking my thoughts.
?I?ve lost someone I loved before too.? He stated in a quiet voice.
?Who? God, I’m so sorry Alex.?
?It?s alright. It?s not your fault. My Granddad died a couple of years back. We had been so close.?
?Oh, Alex, that?s awful.?
?It?s fine! Honestly. All I mean is, I realize how you feel right now.? I rested my head back on his shoulder as he spoke. ?Lost. Alone. Misunderstood. So upset words can?t describe. Empty.? It was amazing. Each one of the words he was using described specifically how I felt. Each emotion I was feeling that he was speaking faded a bit as he listed them. ?But that?s why I?m here, Paige. I wish to help you.?
For a moment I couldn?t speak. Alex rubbed my arm in a way that comforted me, although I sat in silence.
?Amber would?ve loved you.? I said lastly.
?Why??
?You?re so lovely. In fact, you would?ve loved Amber. You?d probably already have a date for Friday night or some thing.? I smirked weakly as I said it, but the believed of it produced my chest hurt.
?How so?? He asked. I could virtually hear the smile in his voice.
?You seem just like her type. And she seems like yours.?
?And what is “my type”?? He asked using a gleam in his eye.
?Tall, slim, blonde, long ringlets with huge blue eyes and perfectly clear porcelain skin. I believe you get the picture.?
?Not necessarily. What if I like layered, straight, brown hair, and huge brown eyes, with olive skin, covered with tiny little freckles? What then??
I couldn?t say anything. He was describing me!
?Besides,? he said. ?I didn?t meet her. I met you.?
?I know.? I whispered, and sighed.
?I know this is so difficult for you at the moment. It will get far better. I promise.?
Alex?s P.O.V
Paige was heartbroken, and that killed me inside. Seeing her like this made me really feel like a part of me broke, and I only wanted her to feel better. What she was going by means of, it was just wrong.
I looked over to her computer and saw Facebook up on the screen.
?Hey, is that her?? I asked, looking at the smily, blonder haired, extremely pretty girl on the screen. But she wasn?t nearly as pretty as Paige.
?Yeah. Told you she was pretty.?
?She was,? I whispered, and felt her stiffen in my arms. Smiling, I nuzzled her neck.
?But not nearly as pretty as you.?
I could really really feel her blush as I said the words, and I got up from the bed and went to sit down on her desk. Paige followed me over, and I pulled her onto my lap, exactly where she curled up in to a tiny ball, and rested her head on my chest.
?You?re both lovely.? I stated as I went through the photos, but I got no reply. I guessed she was asleep, but the only way I could tell was moving, and if she was asleep, I didn?t desire to wake her.
I carried on going by means of the photos and then went onto her music.
?You are able to play something in the event you want.? She whispered, telling me she was nonetheless awake.
I clicked on shuffle and Little House by Amanda Seyfried began playing.
?I really like this song.? I stated as Paige stood up and stretched. I stood up too.
?Exact same.? She smiled, and I bowed and held out my hand to her.
?Care to dance?? I asked, and she smiled, placing her hand inside the palm of mine. My fingers curled around hers slowly.
?I?d love to.? She giggled, and I pulled her right up to my chest, holding her eyes, and resting my hand on her hip. Her hands went about my back and she rested her head on my chest as we danced, swaying delightfully to the music. There was some thing about making this girl pleased, something concerning the way she was relaxing in my arms, that created me feel like I needed to do this for the rest of my life. I was only fifteen years old, but a part of me, a huge part of me that was attempting, but failing, to hide away, knew I was falling for this girl. Tough.
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